Stand In Awe Of God
Ashley March. 2.2003
I find myself cursing my very Creator sometimes because I lack the patience and understanding to get what exactly He is doing up there in heaven.
Sometimes I feel like He is just sitting up there watching me anxiously wondering if I'll make the right choice or not. Other times I feel as though the Lord is sitting upon His throne weeping because I refuse to call out to Him for mercy and help. Lately, I've felt like He's not even in heaven...but right beside me. I'll admit I prefer the latter. The comfort of knowing my God is walking along side me makes not knowing what tomorrow will bring much easier to bear.
I've been praying a lot these past few months. Selfish as it may seem, I frequently ask God to bless me. Lol, it's not because I want powers and riches, though, it's because I want, no, I desire to serve Him.
Many of us have been called by God to go unto the world and spread His holy name. I have always felt lead to, but I have only just recently taken the first step God requires of all His servants. I first had to trust Him...trust that He would provide for me and place me where He needed me most AND realize that He would prepare my heart and soul for whatever He had in store for me.
This week I answered the call, and I will be serving the Lord in the most awesome way. At the Kids Across America camp in Missouri, I will use my love for kids and my gift of writing to serve God in a way I never dreamt of. After years of tormenting myself and telling God, the Master and Creator of all we see and all we are, "NO! I can't go," I am going and am humbled He chose me to fulfill His will.
Awesome.
So, I prayed for blessings, and long behold, the Lord blessed me. He blessed me with Salt Shaker. He blessed me with GBS (aka Girls' Bible Study; aka Gamma Beta Sigma). He blessed me with awesome friends. He blessed me with a loving and supportive family. He blessed me with a renewed zeal for His truth. And last but not least, He blessed me with the energy to serve.
I waited a long time for the fulfillment of what seemed like an age-old prayer. I moved to another city, I threatened to move again, and in the end, I found my answer in the very place I longed to leave. God taught me He is everywhere I am, and that I will be able to serve Him anywhere I am. He also taught me that patience is in fact worth the investment.
The Lord works in crazy and mysterious ways, yes, but He also does so in His very own time. All He requires of me is to be earnest in my desire for Him...to stand in awe of His awesome (redundant, no?) presence.
I challenge everyone to seek the Lord with a sincere heart, and ask Him to bless your heart with an unquenchable thirst for Him.
God bless.
~*<><*~
Ashley
